The Dragon Ladies keep walking in and out of my study room.
No Im good I dont need anything, I dont need help can I be left alone for the duration of my free block pleaseeeee/
Todays Advisory like every Friday
So we prolong C Block and we still get out ten minutes early
I have my speech due for Bentley today, which IS done
Oh - Teaching Art yesterday was awesome
Yes, me teach. And we got stuff done
We did a charcol and chalk portrait of Sara, which was awesome lol
and I initiated snaps into our critiques lol <3 yay me haha
But yeah, Advisorys, Daniel transfered into my Advisory on Tuesday?
Yeah, and todays our meeting so the fit time
I hope we sit on the foor again
Theres not gunna be enough desks haha
I wish I had the eighty dollars to make the round trip.
But maybe this is a good thing.
This way I dont miss Jays birthday
And I can put something together
Also theres a masquerade ball at Bear Tavern next Friday
And Im down for it lol
Jer isnt going to ask me to go with him as his date - so Im gunna ask Ian lol <3
Sigh thatll be funny a hell
I have Conference Period with Bentley today and B Block is almost over.
Il try and get a chance to post later but Im not sure IF Ill be able to
Hey hunny.. Do you feel any better?
=/ So what happened?
go back to your damn valentines day
im really not doing anything. Im just hanging out with Jer..
Seriously Lyssa; I love you like a sister. And I worry about you. Even if Im like a few hundred miles away.
And Im osrry I keep dropping the ball on our friendship I really do feel like crap about that
But I do care.
Just; if you need someone to talk I am here
You have your life, I have mine. Just don't fucking forget where you've been. No, I don't want to fucking talk to anyone because everything is turning to scum lately, and I'm sick of it. I'd have better luck jumping off a god damn bridge.
Dont talk like that; you do have things going for you ya'know
No i fucking don't
and don't try to tell me otherwise because you wont be able to
And why not
Cuz I believe it
Your a strong person Lyssa
You can pull through everything
I'm going to break someones neck if one more persons says that
I don't give a damn anymore
I don't have any value on my life
You may not but theres others that do
I value your life
You're too busy with your new life.
Im not to busy
Im not busy
That's a lie
and you and I both know it
What am I to busy for Lyssa?
Im gunna go.
^ case and point. Bye.
If you wanna talk later; you can text if you want.
Im not busy Im getting off because Im not making you feel any beter which is ending in me feeling like shit.
And I hatefeeling like shit.
Ill just talk to you later
have a better day
No if, and's, but's or maybe's
So you wanna be her baby
I can read your face like a book
Yeah it looks easy to love her but believe me brother
It's harder than it looks
She's as pretty as a picture
Every bit as funny as she is smart
Got a smile that'll hold you together
And a touch that'll tear you apart
When she's yours she brings the sunshine
When she's gone the world goes dark
Yeah she's heaven on the eyes
But boy she's hell on the heart
Thats only half the song cuz my comp keeps being a dinosaur..
So my Maya Angelou saying?
'Dont trust a naked person that offers you a shirt?'
Yeah, blown to all bloody hell.
Now I have this little CUATION popup in my head (Ian told me to get a new popup blocker lol)
I really do like him alot.
Like, I cant deny feelings for him at all. I love spending time with him.
He makes me feel like a little kid again; just pure and happy at all times.
But how can you love someone if you dont love yourself?
Like; oddlys enough this is coming from me, the girl that didnt love herself for a long assed time.
But I do now. I do love myself. And accpt myself for who I am.
He doesnt love himself at all..
Hes like "I accept myself, but I dont love myself." I was sitting there dumbfounded.
Like.. What do I say to that?
What do I do?
Jayboy was like 'dont worry'
i was like thats telling water not to be wet
Hes like google it, theres such a thing as dry water
I was like WTF!? NO WAY!
Its true. There is such a thing.
There goes another saying, completely slaughtered by the Vermont boys
Tinas like "Dude whatevs." and stole my phone is now texting her boo. Their not 'together' but shes like oh I hate boys but Aquil is diffrent.
My sister the player lol
I should go to bed.
Its past my bedtime and.. Its late..
Did I Just Say That?
Damn that boy really is wearing off on me
Got most of my AOI stuff done w/ Ian as my mentor
NOTE: Ian is my counter part. Swear on my life lol
We both love Battlestar Galactica
We both love video games
Both love the Japanese language and
WE BOTH DO THE SAME RANDOM HEAD NODS AND NOISES W
HONEST TO GOD!
Crazy shit haha
Gosh Im texting Jer already lol
Sigh I called him and as like HEY I HAVE A PHONEE KLUVYOUNIGHT
And now we texting lol
I should go to bed.
I need to wake up early and shower in the morning lol
I cant BELIEVE how NASTY this house is!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
Like; I cant have a social life because the house gets trashed.
I want to cry.
Im not even close to done with the livingroom yet
And Im doing laundry at the same time
And Im waiting for Jer to come over to give me a hug after C Block ends..
I need it.
I feel so overwhelmed.
Im not a caretaker.
Im not a maid..
Im a teenager.